Journal #6

I walked towards the park for my afternoon smoke. The sun was bright outside and the clouds seemed to be avoiding it. I haven't heard from Effy or Freddie in a while but I didn't mind it really. As I reached the park I saw two squirrels battling it out they scratched at each other furiously until one finally managed to scare the other one off. I followed the little guy who ran towards another squirrel and then they ran away together. He won the girl. What were the odds that I would see this happen. I kept walking and then I saw them. Effy and Freddie kissing on our bench. The bench were we swore we wouldn't fight over her. I couldn't control this burning sensation inside me. It was as if someone had lit a fire inside me. Why would they do this to me?
"Cook!" Effy shouted as she noticed me but now it was to late.
"You bitch!" I shouted and then I blacked out. Next thing I know I open my eyes a brick on my hand, blood on my shirt, and Effy was dead. Her head bashed in like a melon.
"Cook, put it down. You killed her! Put it down!" A crowd of people appeared and I chased after Freddie. We ran through the park jumping over fences, cutting through the bushes. It was as if my body was no longer listening to me and it was just doing whatever it pleased.
"Cook stop! I'm sorry! I loved her!" His words didn't stop me I lunged forward grabbing his shirt. Freddie managed to take it off and got away. I raised my hand and threw the brick as hard as I could. A loud crack echoed through the air and he fell. The clouds finally managed to cover the sun and suddenly I was freed from my wild side. I looked at my hand and then it hit me "run" I said to myself. I began to run as hard as I could. The siren echoed through the air and it began to drizzle. I ran faster and faster into the woods of the park. I jumped over roots, dodged branches, and avoided trees. "Faster" my brain was forcing me to survive. Sweat was running down my face, my hands frantically trying to wipe the sweat away from my eyes.
  A loud gun shot was heard and I felt instant pain on my right ear. "You're hit" my brain says but for some reason I keep running, my hand shooting up to my ear. Bam, another one but this time it misses, it hits a tree next to me and I keep running. The ground below me becomes denser and the drizzle turned into a storm. Boom, "Its just thunder" I say to myself. I couldn't hear anything else but the rain pouring on the trees, I could feel my legs beginning to give out, my throat felt as if were on fire. I keep running even though it was getting harder to see. I could hear barking in the distance. It was getting harder and harder to breathe, and harder and harder to stay steady. I began to think about Effy and Freddie, I had killed them. They are dead now.
  Blood was gushing down my right side and I could do nothing but run. I see Freddie's neck cracking again at the impact of the brick, and for the first time I see Effy pleading for help and reaching for Freddie as I bashed her in the side of the head. Instantly I trip over a root and impale into a branch. Air escapes me and I instantly scream out in agony. Blood pours out my mouth and I see the world become black. "You lost" my brain said.